Manusia

Manusia. Aku, kamu, kita, sama-sama manusia. Sulit menjadi manusia. Karena manusia penuh keegoisan. Terkadang yang dipikirkan dan diutamakan hanya keinginan, kebahagiaan, dan kepuasan diri sendiri.

Manusia kerap lupa betapa kompleks hidupnya. Betapa dia bergantung pada manusia lainnya. Berinteraksi. Bertahan hidup. Memenuhi kebutuhan hidupnya.

Ada manusia. Dia senang, hidupnya menjadi melegakan ketika manusia lain begitu sabar. Begitu toleran. Begitu pengertian. Begitu perhatian.

Terbuailah dirinya. Dia pun lupa. Lupa bahwa manusia lain punya perasaan yang sama sepertinya. Yang harus dijaga baik-baik. Sebagaimana manusia lain selalu menjada miliknya. Terlupakanlah olehnya cara untuk melakukannya.

Tanpa sadar, si manusia sudah melukai manusia lain.

Kata si manusia lain,
Cobalah mengerti dan berhenti ingin terus dimengerti.
Cobalah berhenti berbicara, dan mulai mendengar.
Cobalah menyimak, bukan sekedar mengucap kata iya.
Cobalah melihat, bukannya ingin terus diperhatikan.
Cobalah lebih memahami.

Jadi manusia sulit bukan? Ternyata banyak yang perlu dilakukan.
Tapi jangan takut jadi manusia. Manusia punya akal. Manusia punya kemampuan dan keinginan. Gunakan untuk belajar. Belajar yang manusia lain katakan. Belajar selagi kesempatannya ada.

A Loving Family

With one thing in common, a bunch of people we've never really known before became a very close in heart friends.

In 3 days, we've shared a lot of things, and sees much.
The stories we tell each other, the jokes that makes us laugh, the journey we traveled, the leasons we learned, and most of, all the moments we shared together.
In 3 days, we simply became a new family.

Maybe we're seperated in distance, and by time. But I believe, we're never seperated in heart.
I love you all, buddies!! And longing to dive again with all of you real soon! Miss you!! ;)

zéro

I woke up this morning with high expectation. And all I found is disappointment.

I checked the phone over and over, but no messages, no missed calls. So I went online and checked everything. E-mail, YM, even FB and Twitter. Still I found nothing. Nada, Zero, Null.. *Sigh..

Sometimes I get tired of waiting, when the waiting results nothing. It makes me think twice even more. Was it worth waited? Was it worth the effort I put in? Was it worth every single second of my patience? Oh, I cannot even answer my very own question.

I don’t know whether this is stupid, dumb, or whatever. I still wait. Though I got tired, I still came back to the same spot and waited. I’m waiting the zero turns into numbers. Into answers. Into something surprising. Into something special.

And while I’m waiting. I shed a tear.

birthdays

Boyfriend's birthday is coming up in several days. Been so excited for the last 2 weeks.

I'm so into birthdays. Birthday greetings, presents, surprises, the pranks. Everything!

Why do I love everything about birthday? In my very own opinion, through birthday we sometimes could see how much people cares.
The way they pray for us, the time they spend to find the perfect gift, the arrangement of the surprise, the effort to make the birthday boy/girl sooo happy on their day.
If you don't care much to the person, why spending time and money to all those? You know the answer.
Yes, exactly. You care a lot about them. It's why you're willing to do all that.
And the simplest of all, remembering the date of birthday itself shows you care.

I like picking presents. Though I'm not that good. Choosing the right one, the very perfect one is never easy.
Is this the one s/he likes? Is this what s/he needs? Will s/he love the one I choose. Thinking about it drives me crazy. Though I still want to do it. Because I want them to be happy the second the open the present. And then keeping it, and be happy for it for the rest of their lifes.

Another thing I like is birthday greetings. Cards, the cute one, the funny one with jokes, or just a simple words formed into great sentences which came out from the heart.

I just want the person I care about had a very amazing blasting birthday to be remembered forever.

Happy birthday for anyone who's celebrating it today! Have a blast guys! it's your day... :)

On the way home.

Hitting the road. Bus driver flooring the gas pedal. Bus runs on the highway. As they're chasing each others. Bus and bus, trucks and trucks, cars and cars.

Dark clouds shroud. Thunders and lightning. Rain pouring heavily. Drops on the window pane. As they're trying to break in.

Me. Sitting here. Brain begins to work. Fingers tapping on keypad.

Me want to sleep

Late nite monologue. Sleep deprived talk. Brain freezed blabber.
Sun will shine in hours. Yet still awake. Lack of sleep. But still fighting to stay awake.
When will this end? When will i get my chance to get in touch with bed? When will i can hug my baby blooster. When will i go swimmingg in my dreams.

What's been happening?

It's been a while since my last post. Well I actually can't say a while when it's over a month I left this blog abandoned. Haha. Somehow I'm bad at managing my time, I barely had my time to write down my thoughts.

So what's been happening to me. What's on my mind. What's been crushing my world or coloring it. I might say A LOT. Yes, truckloads of things happened in a very short time.

First issue. FRIENDSHIP.
I miss my girls, Karin, Gaga , Ajeng, Dora, and Erin.
Karin, she has left to UK. Continuing her study. Oh how jealous I am! But I'm pretty sure, I turn is about to come. I really have to work my ass off searching for scholarships.
Gaga and Dora, they must be working on their final project. Their struggling to finish the study and get their bachelor degree. You can do it girls!! Can't wait to see you both on your graduation day.
Ajeng. Hmm.. Fixing her broken heart I assumed. Sigh. I just can't get it. Why on earth does she always has to experienced bad things in her love life. And leaving her in her worst nightmare. Being left behind for no reason.
Erin. Almost lost track of her. Busy working I guess. Uhhh.. I miss gossiping with her.
I really miss my girls. Miss them a lot. I need a day together with them and talk about everything.

I had this one major thing in my friendship. No. This is not about me and my girls. We're doing just fine. This is about me and another friend. I happen to can't understand what's up with us. How come we went from really close friends like a thumb and the index finger (such a worse metaphor) into a complete strangers. We stopped texting each other. Not to mention phoning each other. It just happened. Snap! Just like that. I'm sad of it. I just can't really tell what happened, because I really don't know. Sigh! I need to fix this real soon.

Second issue. FAMILY.
Gosh! I miss my brother so much. We haven't meet in a while. I think it's almost a month. We usually go out and hang somewhere once or twice a month. It's just a simple brother sister outing. But I really like it. Sharing stories. Asking advice. He's the one I ran to anytime I got a problem.

Third issue. LOVE.
Yeap, love. I recently just gotten into a relationship. A happy one I could say. Why? Because apparentely all we do is laugh, laugh and laugh. We love because we laugh. How good is that? Really thankfull for it. Buuutttt.... I had a new problem. And the problem isss.. maintaining the relationship itself. Finding the one we really care about is such a hard thing to do, and believe me, maintaining it is million billion zillion times harder. I am once again learning. I am learning to be patient. To put my ego as low as the ground we step on everyday. To understands. To know. Gosh. There's a lot to learn in one relationship..

Okay, what's else? Humm.. I think its just that.